lovelorn thought!!

its kinda late at nite,,, just finished watch the OC,,, and all these season made me think a lot more bout my life,,

i've been obsessed with himmm,,, n i kinda had this obsessive thought since 7 years ago,,must i have a courage to let him know??or just let time melting it then he'll know when the time is about to be perfect???

humm,, i cant figure it out,,, cant think about anything dat culd be d best way to solve it,,,all i culd think is just him,,, and all i culd do is just wondering,,if he feels d same way too,, oh God,,, am i being overreact??

i wait for his msg,,wait for his calls,,,just to hang enuff there n know dat he *i hope he will* feels d way dat i did,,,,but i think,, if we found our path together,, i mean literally like being a couple again,,, it wouldnt feel d same,,,becoz of what ive through these past 7 years,,, 7 years without him its feels like im being stranded,,, but it does made me learn alot,,,

but i dont think,,i dont act the same like i did back then,,, specially when it comes to a relationship,,,,

ive been through alot of relationships,,alot of men,,,,consider it as an turn over,, but it dont feel d same when im with him,,,,
he did made me safe,, comfort,,,warmth eventhou with his bare hand,, even with his bare eyes,,he still can amaze me,,,

am i being compulsive??am i being nuts???just like he said,,, i'm also the lovelorn who sick in soul n wait d day that all this obsessive thought wuld blow up,,!!!!!